What led us to adoption?

This is us years ago, before we were even married. We're the couple who talked about all the kids they were going to have before even talking about marriage. We had names picked out, and desired birth order. We even planned when we would take all said kids to Disney World. But life rarely turns out the way you plan. 

We tried to conceive on our own. After a year of no success we underwent various infertility treatments including multiple IVF attempts, trying like heck to conceive a child. We were finally successful after five years, and after a risky pregnancy we gave birth to our son, Sean. Aha! We had it figured out, right? Nope. We went through all of the controlling treatments again trying for another child without success.  After the last procedure, our doctor came to see us. He said everything went well and now all we do is wait and pray. He understood that science can only do so much to conceive a child. It takes God. 

It’s been a journey. We’ve learned a lot, but mostly we’ve learned about letting go. God’s will be done. And His will is going to be infinitely better than anything we can control. Heck, I have a hard time roasting a chicken for dinner sometimes.

Lord, I give you my womb. I had to repeat this meditation over and over again. Hoping to let go of all the control we thought we had over the process. But it was hard. And then, out of the mouth of our four year old - "It’s ok. Don’t worry. God’s working on it.”

And that, my friends, was the answer. We knew we would get through it. We always do. Just give up the control and leave the plans to God.

It was then that we knew God was leading us to domestic open adoption (more like nudging us really hard!). This path to building our family has been in our hearts since the beginning. We're excited to follow God's lead and share our love with a new son or daughter. We love being parents and the thought of having another child to love gives me goosebumps. It's an amazing feeling.

Lord, I give you my womb. Your will be done. The sun will rise again tomorrow, and we’re hopeful.